....a 7 cm cyst. Yup, they are connected and it sucks. Maybe that’s what I deserve for not being monitored last cycle.
I have a very large cyst. The sonographer and the doctor were very alarmed. They both acknowledge that it is large. It has grown very fast in a short amount of time. It sucks. I feel like someone died. But who? Maybe my hope.
So many things happened this weekend – bad things – and now this. I’m overwhelmed and emotional. I must regroup and be positive but it’s extremely hard. I broke down today and finally heard God yelling at me. Most who know me, know listening to God is a very hard thing. I’m not religious. I’m spiritual. I believe in Him, but I don’t side with a certain religion. I don’t pray often. I don’t acknowledge him much, like I probably should, but I do believe in Him and I believe he understands all of this.
I do know one thing – the prayer of my family is extremely powerful. They have prayed for us for YEARS, for many reasons, and I believe their prayer has brought us so many great things. So today after a very bad weekend and the news of a huge cyst, I finally shared our story with my mother in law. It was a HUGE step. It was like God was telling me “Wake up, A! You can’t do this on your own! I’ve been trying to tell you this for so long!!”