March 10, 2009

My Right Ovary’s New Friend

....a 7 cm cyst. Yup, they are connected and it sucks. Maybe that’s what I deserve for not being monitored last cycle.

I have a very large cyst. The sonographer and the doctor were very alarmed. They both acknowledge that it is large. It has grown very fast in a short amount of time. It sucks. I feel like someone died. But who? Maybe my hope.

So many things happened this weekend – bad things – and now this. I’m overwhelmed and emotional. I must regroup and be positive but it’s extremely hard. I broke down today and finally heard God yelling at me. Most who know me, know listening to God is a very hard thing. I’m not religious. I’m spiritual. I believe in Him, but I don’t side with a certain religion. I don’t pray often. I don’t acknowledge him much, like I probably should, but I do believe in Him and I believe he understands all of this.

I do know one thing – the prayer of my family is extremely powerful. They have prayed for us for YEARS, for many reasons, and I believe their prayer has brought us so many great things. So today after a very bad weekend and the news of a huge cyst, I finally shared our story with my mother in law. It was a HUGE step. It was like God was telling me “Wake up, A! You can’t do this on your own! I’ve been trying to tell you this for so long!!”


  1. I'm so sorry to hear that! I'm praying that the cyst gets smaller or better, disappears completely.

    I understand what you're saying about religion and praying. I'm the same way too.

    Try not to give up hope. Sometimes I think that & my Faith are what gets me through the day.


  2. I agree with you, the power of prayer is amazing and so is our Faith (no matter what that Faith might be) And I know its hard, but dont let your hope die. I love this quote by MLK:

    "If you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all. And so today I still have a dream."

    Im sorry about the cyst, what are they going to do to treat it?