December 22, 2009

The Uncertainty

I told DH this week that I'm actually content with our future being so uncertain. There are so many decisions we're going to have to make in the next couple of years. The biggest - where DH will decide to go to school. We've always expected that we'd be moving out of Texas; however, ever since I entered back onto the workforce, I've expressed my concerns with moving and leaving this opportunity behind. One of the fabulous qualities about my DH is that he's so understanding and even when it's not necessary, he puts my needs in front of his. I love him.

So the future is uncertain. We're living life day by day. All I can wish is that we are able to focus at the objective at hand and not allow our "wants" or "desires" to cloud our necessities.

DH will be sending off his college applications in the next couple of weeks....

It's also uncertain if we'll ever be able to start the family we so desperately desire. It's uncertain if we should right now considering all we're going through.

I've been charting and my temp has been high, so I may have O'd but I'm positive we didn't BD around the right time if I did O.

I'm no longer participating in the clinical research study in Chicago. I'm unable to travel to Chicago with my new job, so unfortunately I had to withdraw. I'm really bummed about it, because I thoroughly enjoyed Chicago (Michigan Ave to be exact!) and I looked forward to attributing to the study of PCOS. If you have PCOS, PLEASE consider participating in this study and attributing to the study and, hopefully, the ability to find a cure for this horrible syndrome!! All expenses are PAID and you get paid nearly $1K just for participating!!!

So things are uncertain... and I'm looking forward to making some major life altering decisions in 2010!

December 10, 2009

Expecting to wake up soon

I've been working for my new employer for 4 days now. My two other co-workers (my only other co-workers) are absolute dolls. They are the same age as me and they can't wait to "take me out"! They are so fun to be around!

Today my boss (the doctor) took us all out to lunch. According to the girls, this was the annual Christmas Party. We were taken to a very swanky restaurant just outside the hustle and bustle of our city. After a 4 course meal, we exchanged gifts and were given the afternoon off! After 4 days, I got a gift from my doctor and his wife AND the girls! I'm expecting to wake up at any minute now.

I'm very grateful for what I've been given this week. I could almost positively tell you that I have found the PERFECT job! I've been told many many times by my co-workers - "You won't find a better doctor to work for!" Sigh.

So what am I doing?! Well, my background is in Health Insurance, Medical Billing, and Insurance Collections. When I quit my full time job to stay at home to run my company full time I was working for a 7 physician group of OB/GYNs. I absolutely loved my job and absolutely hated leaving, but I had to do what I had to do, because my company was making me double my salary! Hah. Not anymore.

I am now working for a male OB/GYN. It's a solo office, so he's the only doctor in the office! I handle all his medical billing and collections. I also schedule his surgeries.

I've been out of the workforce for 3 years running my company from home. I was fearful that "gap" may work against me. However, I was offered the same pay I was making at my previous office.

I've been thanking God every day for what I've been given.

December 5, 2009

29 hours later

I WAS at maximum capacity and God must read my blog, because I had no idea how things could and would change only 29 hours later.

My last blog post was on Thursday at 9:50 am CST. 27 minutes later, I received a phone call. It was a doctor's office calling to schedule an interview. (Yes, I had sent my resume out to this office, because it was the PERFECT match.) I had been struggling for a long time try to decide whether I should return back to work doing what I used to do before I started my company. It has been 3 years and I didn't know how that time would affect my ability to find a job. So, the interview was scheduled for 2 pm - sameday!

Twenty four hours and 18 minutes later, I received the job offer and at 2:19 pm I was no longer at maximum capacity. Wow, how things can change in only 29 hours! I was so incredibly grateful and excited!

I felt so relieved, but at the same time a little sad. What was going to happen to my company? I've worked so hard for 3 years to build its great reputation! Will I need to turn away customers this coming Spring/Summer? How will I work full time, go to school part time, and continue to keep my company alive.

I don't know how it's going to be possible, but I must try 110% to keep it alive. All I know is how INCREDIBLY relieved I am. I'm positive this is the start to a wonderful 2010!

More good news, I start on MONDAY!!!

December 3, 2009

Ready for 2010

What's the saying? "God doesn't give you more than you can handle?" Well, I'm feeling at maximum capacity.

Here’s what has been going on:
Week of Thanksgiving – Trip to Chicago, Thanksgiving with family in Fort Worth, Packing the entire house on Black Friday, Moving the next day (Saturday), Unpacking on Sunday and on Monday and still in progress.

When we moved into our apartment, we found mold – yup! It wasn’t “considered an emergency” so of course, we had to wait until Monday to have someone come out to take a look at it. It’s still not 100% rectified. The scent is lingering or the carpets need to be cleaned again or completely replaced.

Business is still slow. The (second) job I acquired was "given" to an internal employee without my permission - long story. So now I'm job hunting again. Money is still very tight, or frankly, nonexistent.

I haven’t been temping at all. I haven’t even thought about TTC. I haven’t been following a good diet (per my dietitian in Chicago) due to all that has been going on. I’m really in no positive attitude to eat well. I’ve given up for the time being.

I can honestly say 2009 as been horrible for myself. I am so ready for the New Year and to say goodbye to 09.