January 14, 2010

Talking again.

If you walk down the hall at my office, you'll hear the most beautiful sound - a baby's heartbeat. Sometimes I have to make my legs keep walking because I want to stop and listen.

I really haven't wanted to bring it up, really, with everything going on. But I can't ignore "that feeling". I hate calling it "Baby Fever". Sounds so childish. So we're talking about it again.

I want to actively TTC, but I really should try to lose some weight, but I have absolutely no discipline whatsoever. I make excuses and don't try 100%. I just want it to happen on it's own. I don't want to have to work at it. Been there, done that, didn't work.

I don't know what it's gonna take - not getting a BFP - getting my ass into gear and realizing that this won't just happen on it's own. I NEED to make some changes for my health and my child's health. What is it gonna take, really? I dunno.

Sometimes I feel so motivated, then something happens and I fall. I don't know what it's gonna take to get back up... but I'm gonna try to figure it out.


  1. Its so hard to loose weight when you have PCOS. Don't be too hard on yourself!! I heard that doing the south beach diet is good for PCOS and I have considered giving it a try.
    I also just started walking and am amazed and how good I feel after doing that and not really changing my diet, because I like to eat what I like to eat :)

  2. I stumbled on across your blog! When you were talking I thought it was me. Looking forward to reading about your journey!