I have to admit finding myself here was extremely emotional. So sad to see it's been so long since my last entry, but so incredibly joyous to know my time has been filled with the pure enjoyment of my miracle baby. Then, the astonishment that she’s about to be 3 years old. And, then… the anxiety, the fear, the despair… came over me. The reason I found myself here: my infertility.
I knew I documented my journey well over those years. I came to retrieve those details. It would have been easier to leave those details behind and never face them again. Or to bury them in this online world of my blog, but those details are a part of me. My infertility journey will always be a part of me, whether I like it or not.
So, here we are, nearly 3 years post the birth of our daughter – our first miracle. And, just over a year since we lost our second and third miracles. Now, we ask for our fourth…
I am 33 years old and have been married to a wonderful man for 10 years. We battled infertility and PCOS w/ IR for nearly 3 years before we received our first BFP in September 2010. Our daughter was born on May 31, 2011. I have two careers. I own a small graphic design business, and I'm also a Certified Medical Coder. ...all while supporting my husband through graduate school.
22 dpo (5 w pg) - Beta HCG is 23 (miscarriage confirmed)
April 28, 2015 - began miscarrying
2nd Pregnancy - Miscarriage of twins
O'ing naturally around CD 20-28 for 6 consecutive mths - something we never experienced before.
December 15, 2012 at 3w5d - Natural BFP! Due: August 26, 2013 Starting weight: 162
6w4d - Two gestational sacs. Both empty.
6w5d - HCG - 19,023
6w6d - Started bleeding and passed a large blob of tissue
7w - HCG - 707 :(
7w1d - Follow up u/s -m/c complete, uterine lining and ovaries appeared normal.
5/31/11 - Aiyana Helene is born! 7 lbs. 7 oz., 20.5 in 6/2/11 - Discharged from hospital - 6 lbs. 14 oz. 6/4/11 - 6 lbs. 15 oz. 6/8/11 - 7 lbs. 7 oz - Back to her birth weight after only 8 days! 6/15/11 - 8 lbs. 4 oz.; 21 inches 6/18/11 - First full on smile in response to Mommy! 6/21/11 - Very first coo's!
8/4/11 - First vaccines; 12 lbs and 22.5 in 8/11/11 - First Chuckle 8/14/11 - First night to sleep in crib! 9/4/11 - Started to grab and pull at her toys! 9/23/11 - Rolled over from back to belly and her first Ranger baseball game! 10/10/11 - 16 lbs. 11 oz.
My First Pregnancy
Aug 21, 2010 - 1st Femara cycle - 2.5 mg (CD 3-7) Sept 7, 2010 - O'd for only the 2nd time in 3 years! Sept 22, 2010 - BFP!!!!
6w2d - Saw gest sac, yolk, and baby 7w2d - Saw HB on u/s 12w - Found HB on doppler (166 BPM) for the first time 14w2d - Doc 80% sure IT'S A GIRL!! 15w4d - Felt first tickle of movement 17w - Feeling taps of movement multiple times a day 17w - Anatomy looks great and it's definitely a GIRL!! 20w2d - Mommy felt movement from outside! 21w5d - Daddy gets kicked for the first time!! 29w2d - u/s - baby could be 3.5 pounds already!! 31w3d - Daddy hears heartbeat w/ his ear to belly! 35w6d - Started to lose mucous plug 36w3d - Cervix 0-1 cm and 50% effaced 37w2d - Cervix same... no change 38w3d - Cervix same... no change 39w2d - Cervix same... no change; Scheduled Cervical Ripening and Induction for June 2nd (40w2d).
40w - Due Date - Aiyana is born!
Our Infertility Journey
Dec 07 - Stopped BCP
Mar 08 - Read TCOYF(Taking Charge of Your Fertility) and started charting
Aug 08 - Started Prometrium to start a new cycle (FAILED)
Sept 08 - Started NPC to start a new cycle (FAILED)
Oct 08 - 2nd attempt w/ Prometrium to start a new cycle (FAILED)
Nov 08 - Added Vitamin B6 and B-complex
Dec 08 - Finally AF arrived after 5 days of Provera
Jan 09 - 100 mg Clomid (CD 3-7); 2 follicles (12-13 mm on CD13); 1 follicle (18 mm) and 1 follicle (14 mm), lining 9 mm on CD15, O on CD18 - BFN
Dec 08 - 1st Sonogram (borderline PCOS, One 1 cm follicle - good news); Bloodwork - slightly elevated testosterone
Feb 09 - 50 mg Clomid (CD 3-7); no monitoring this cycle - No O
Mar 09 - 100 mg Clomid (3-7); US on CD14 found 7 cm Cyst. No more clomid until it goes away.
May 09 - Cyst gone!
June 09 - Cautiously trying 25 mg of Clomid (3-7) - No O
July 09 - 50 mg of Clomid (3-7) - No O
Aug 09-Nov 09 - Participated in Clinical Research Studies for those with PCOS
Dec 09 - Withdrew from infertility treatments and hoping it happens naturally
2WW = 2 Week Wait (the two weeks after ovulation and before AF arrives) AF = Aunt Flo (menstruation/period) B/W = Bloodwork BCP = Birth Control Pills BD = Sex to TTC; Baby Dance Beta = Blood pregnancy test
BF = Breastfeed/Breastfeeding BFN = Big Fat Negative (negative pg test) BFP = Big Fat Positive (positive pg test) BH = Braxton Hicks CD = Cycle Day (before we got PG!) CD = Cloth Diaper
DD = Dear Daughter DH = Dear/Darling Husband DPO = Days Past Ovulation
DS = Dear Son DTD = Doing The Deed (Sex) E2 = Estradiol (Estrogen)
FF = Formula Feed FMU = First Morning Urine FSH = Follicle Stimulating Hormone H&H = Happy and Healthy HCG = Human Chorionic GonadotropinCancel HPT = Home Pregnancy Test HSG = Hysterosalpingogram IB = Implantation Bleeding IF = Infertility IM = Intramuscular IR = Insulin Resistant IUI = Intra-uterine Insemination IVF = In Vitro Fertilization LH = Luteinizing hormone LMP = Last Menstrual Period
LO = Little One LOL = Laugh Out Loud LPD = Luteal Phase Defect M/C = Miscarriage OPK = Ovulation Predictor Kit O = Ovulate P4 = Progesterone PCOS = Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome PG = Pregnant PNV = Pre-natal vitamin POAS = Pee on a Stick (ex, take a pregnancy test) RE = Reproductive Endocrinologist (Infertility Specialist) RRL = Red Raspberry Leaf Tea S/A = Sperm/Semen Analysis SO = Spouse or Significant Other S/W = Software (I use to chart my cycles) TCOYF = Taking Charge of Your Fertility TMI = Too Much Information TSH = Thyroid Stimulating Hormone TTC = Trying to Conceive U/S = Ultrasound