I found myself here.

I have to admit finding myself here was extremely emotional. So sad to see it's been so long since my last entry, but so incredibly joyous to know my time has been filled with the pure enjoyment of my miracle baby. Then, the astonishment that she’s about to be 3 years old. And, then… the anxiety, the fear, the despair… came over me. The reason I found myself here: my infertility.

I knew I documented my journey well over those years. I came to retrieve those details. It would have been easier to leave those details behind and never face them again. Or to bury them in this online world of my blog, but those details are a part of me. My infertility journey will always be a part of me, whether I like it or not.

So, here we are, nearly 3 years post the birth of our daughter – our first miracle. And, just over a year since we lost our second and third miracles. Now, we ask for our fourth…